“To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all.”
It’s hard to believe that the month of March has already come and passed. What a wild ride it was where I painfully realized that I still had so much more to learn regarding trust and understanding God’s sovereignty in every aspect of life. God has been patient with me, though. Revealing to me, bit by bit, how I need to grow and how I need to be applying the truths that I know to my life and my daily walk.
Beautiful days were spent with people I love discovering that mochas enjoyed at the coast and pineapple ice cream shared with a friend are pretty much the most wonderful things ever. Moments were spent sitting and waiting at the hospital while others were spent singing hymns around a bonfire at the beach. It was a month in which I got far too little sleep and ate chocolate with a friend in the airport. I’ve had to face my insecurities and confront issues that I’ve ignored for too long. My flaws and inadequacies have overwhelmed me, and the prospect of impending loss brought me to my knees. All of those painful and glorious moments reminded me that life is an incredible and daring adventure and through the mountains and the valleys, God is good and is holding the entire world in His gracious hands.
Day after day,
We’ll find the will to find our way.
Knowing that the darkest skies will someday see the sun.
-Next to Normal
Talking about Jesus, and sanctification, and life, and the past, and the future … it all brought about a sense of grand discovery where I realized why I was close to the friends that I loved the most; because they point me to Christ and encourage me to continue to run after Him when I feel weak and discouraged. It is because their love and focus is on the same Savior that mine is on.
Seriously. God is so amazing. He knows what we need far better than we think we know for ourselves. His timing is perfect and He knows what situations we need so we can be in an opportunity to glorify Him most with our lives. Who are we to complain about His timing or what He divinely choses to give us or take away from us? It’s like a friend told me once, we must hold everything with an open hand. Open so we are available and willing and thankful to receive what God gives us, but also willing to allow Him to take those things away as well. We cannot be closed off to His blessings, but we also can’t hold onto them with clutched fists either, unwilling to let go.
“There are far, far better things ahead than any we leave behind.”
God is just so good. And life is hard and beautiful and confusing and wonderful and there are moments that make you want to cry for no reason at all, but it’s moments like that where I can just thank God for what He has done for me in the past, where He has me now, and what He is preparing for me in the future.